Sunday, October 16, 2011

marriage ?

I find it difficult to believe that so many men marry.
The women go in blindly , selling their souls to a man they secretly know won't hold their end up in the bargain.
I have seen these men disengage emotionally no matter how hard they pursued their female.
They lie, assign blame to their victim, weasel and sneak.
The disrespect shown to the women who have given birth to the children, nursed them when ill, followed their every whim to try and seek the love they missed from daddy.....     arrgh! makes me so mad!
I can see them try that bullshit with me ~ from the first attempts to accomplish their ego driven agenda.
I see how sweet they are when they make their carefully plotted out approaches at authentic friendship ~
they say the words all correctly, but the feeling is predatorily to me.
I listen to MY instincts. and they tell me to run!
I can see it when I try to assert my needs in the slightest way, set a boundary, take the drivers seat, know how to do a usual 'boy' task.
I can see them try to hide their frustration at the loss of complete control or the anger of the angle they did not expect.
 The men of this era do not want to take responsibility, hold themselves accountable or do any work to evolve.
And the women sit idly by in their denial and silence and feeling of powerlessness.
They act as if its all ok.
Do they not see the uneven power structure as they have to 'accidentally' get pregnant so their man will not leave them?
A women has been trained to not speak out, rock the boat or complain that the only survival technique for the female in this patriarchal financial structure is to become poor or a whore.
I have clearly lost my faith in marriage.

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