transmutaions

I have discovered something about myself and how i travel in this world.
I find that people open up their deepest darkest secrets to me
in the face of my unconditional love for them.
and i mean it.
i do believe we are all connected molecularly
what happens to each of us happens to everyone
the experience of heartache and grief and guilt and anger and love and softness and error and happiness.
all experienced at different times
but we are all made of the same stuff
our bones and blood and nerves
we are little sensitive machines that last about 100 years
and all need water food love sunlight shelter and cloth
creature comforts to be the ultimate human that is happy.

and i love to share my love and passion for the world with others.
the colors the smells the humor
but when i do this
when i give my heart unconditionally and be my free spirit to them
their pain and misery takes a course through my body
that takes days to recuperate from
even in my highest logic
i must transform the unhappiness that i trade them for,
their viewpoint, their perspective, their abilities become me.

but in the end
after the process transmutes
i become their knowledge
perhaps they become my love