Lovelings

She was out of control ~ her whisper across the phone waves revealed her fear of the men that bullied her throughout her life.
 Every phone call or email , another insult and character assassination.
Not one sign of empathy and kindness. Not one bit of understanding. How can someone live for 70 years and not learn how to see through another's eyes?  How self absorbed and in the mirror does one have to be to ignore the lessons of time and situation?
 Her father, grandfather, husband after husband after boyfriend, firing off the same promises, the same demands ~
and one foot into asking for her needs to met,
is the very moment
when those promises are broken and the curtain drawn on a very lovely lie.

 The heartbreak is unbearable and causes one to want to run.
But where is a safe place to call home with rooms filled with acceptance and love ?
Where is the un-drunken laughter? where is the pride in being a man of his word and having the ability to function as the leader of a pack?
where is the model of understanding and wisdom with regards to all?
has the world become so short sighted as to prove DEVO right .. that we are de-evolving?
 Why are we not as a society building men with honor and mediation skills?
Why are we having woman think it is famously fabulous to be called a bitch and to act with disregard for everyone else?
  Has the beauty within been absorbed by the anger and the botox? or just the brain cells depleting , turing girls into lovely. mean crocodiles?
Where is the happiness?

 I repeat to my pained friend again and again ~ what they say is not true ~ they are not in their right minds ~ stop believing the bullies ~ they are sick ~ the negative spewing from their well groomed mouths is toxic waste coming from their own angers and deceptions done upon them in earlier years.

 Know thyself well enough to know that the truth is
we are born kind, Lovelings
and relationships bring situations
and when defeated
only love will bring our strength back ~ only love will bring our strength back only love will bring our strength back.

and that love
can come from another, but don't rely on that
its too much pressure on the other heart

you must find that love
in your own thoughts
train your own thoughts
find it in a sunset or a blue sky
a mountain or the lake
everywhere you look outside there is something you can take in
and love
generate the love from your own thoughts and views and perspectives
from a cookie or a cold glass of milk
a character in a book or a song on the radio
look around
its everywhere when you tune it in
be a conduit for the love
you are a Loveling
quiet for a moment
hear the birds in the blooming trees
notice the scent in the air and the squirrel on the ledge

i love that color she is wearing or the grass in the park next door
i love that joke he said last week that still makes me laugh
comedy is on the tv and chills me out right away
then i can go back to thinking straight after the bullies power is disintegrated.
back to balance in the love i generated
as a Loveling