Monday, January 30, 2012

all girls are Goddesses of Love

All girls are Goddesses of love.
Deep down inside, I believe, that all girls, all of us , are born to seek, nurture and grow life. And life flourishes when seeped in the energy of love.

 Her nature, at its most secure, happy and best form is one that radiates bliss.
The architecture of a woman is to welcome others into her arms warmly, and caress with her kindness, the pain away, after being out in the harsh world of predators.  She is designed to welcome the crying child into her helpful hands, sooth the sadness, and warm them back up with her big heart.
She wants to love and she needs to be loved. She needs to be lifted when she is drained and tired from healing others. She requires the tenderness of a flower with her delicate petals and her thirst to bloom. When loved and cared for properly, a woman is light and life and a source of strength for everyone around her.
 Yes it true that some of us have layers of anger hiding that truth.
But at the bottum line, at birth, we all are Goddesses of Love.

 Through my adult eyes I see how the natural compassion and empathy innate to our nature has been derailed and altered.  These lovely girls morph into cruel women who treat one another with over reactions to small offenses.
They lie and plot unhealthy deeds to undermine each other instead of working with each other toward the goal of a healthy future society.
The humor of a happy little girl giggling at the world has been suffocated. Innocence has been stomped on by misogyny, arrogance and narcissism.
 Young women are seduced, married, emotionally abandoned, and then forced to fend for themselves and their children alone.
  Time and time again, i see the same story ~ the victim is blamed and personal responsibility is deflected.
Blaming others for their own behavior. Not recognizing that responses can be controlled and maintained. Moods must be managed.
And now women's reaction to social change in values is to behave in desperate fashion.
Their natural understanding and nurturing has become a luxury.

 I think this all began when the disconnection of our Authority figures began after WW2.  People stopped taking accountability for their behaviors, refuse to learn to communicate and walk the planet as if they had no connection to anything, the pursuit of Happiness has sadly dissolved.
 Kindness and generosity is scoffed at ~ gentleness made fun of~ power has corrupted and out proportioned rational discussion and truth.

 So many women pretend that everything is all well and good, when it is really not. Living an inauthentic life has made them deeply insecure and obscured them from  their own instincts and intuitions. Anorexia, botox, plastics are just a few ways that women are expressing coping mechanisms to the unbalanced distribution of wealth in our male dominated economy.

Each woman has their own situation. Hopefully they will learning to balance and thrive by generating love in their lives on their own terms.

Monday, January 23, 2012

wide ears open

Hippies said, come on in ~ pick up a drum or any instrument and play it ~ I said, I don't really play an instrument ~ although it is a dream ~ well then, they said, take your choice and just get to know it ~ "but how?" i replied," by playing it ~ they call it play for a reason.  open your heart and your mind... allow what you feel to take over." so i listened  to the music with wide ears. Deep into the music. to each layer . the bass like the heartbeat setting the pace tuning me into rhythm of the drum , connecting my breath to sound and vibration.
 the guitar and keys making my limbs turn into wings and the sparkle of flute or strings make electricity escape through my fingertips.
  so much joy found in 3 small minutes, that lasts a lifetime

Saturday, January 7, 2012

what is everybody drinking about? or what teens should know about sex, drugs and rock n roll...

I now have friends who have kids that are teens.I see the fear in their eyes as they drink down their first glass of white wine by 10AM.
We laugh about the things they want to do or have been caught already doing.  I have to snicker when they get adamant in their strictness for I remember us doing the same things at the very same age. But my friends are truly horrified by the idea of their teens exploring the world of sex, drugs and rock n roll.
I watch these teens struggle with understanding the basics of human relationships and their parents are petrified to tell them the truth. For if the truth were released, it would act as a flood gate of pandoric proportions.
 But, I, as an objective observer believe that arming them with knowledge is the best way to hand over the controls to them. You teach them how to drive before you give them the keys , why would you not teach them about dosage of alcohol and how not to get so sick that you are throwing up all night and disturbing your poor virgin liver. It just makes sense to me to tell them the truth.
Sex is wonderful!  but comes with consequential chemical attachments and 'after behavior'.
Things they should know and understand for mental health and balancing moods.
Understanding is the best tool and I aim to arm them honestly.


some topics include... why are they talking about me, what should I know about sex and love,
why doesn't it work out sometimes, what is everybody drinking about?

Monday, January 2, 2012

finding love on tv...

The ring in my ear is so dissonant when I hear these single women on TV , time and time again, telling us in mustered confident tones with a subtext of 'right???' " i am going to take control and find love in my life.
A man that will love me forever~ for the rest of my life........ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

love is not a controlled substance.
it is a chemistry ~ a stumbling upon a random match.

The control comes afterwards ...as a conscious choice of mind set and attitude.
Character to stay honest and work through difficulties with strategy.
True integrity because it makes one feel strong.


It looks so silly to me.
Why must i find a man to coax into staying with me for ever and ever and ever just because i say so with gusto!

Ridiculous!

I am better on my own then following some guy making idiotic choices in his life.
All i look for in a man now is Accountability.

Funny how my last several relationships included man that did not hold themselves accountable.
the poor victims of evil women and wanting children. awwwwww   ~ pllththththh   ~ i pft with my tongue.

I am so tired of excuses.

Just own your behavior, stop acting like a moran and take somepride in the world you wish to create for gods sake!

I am everything i need to be ~or i am working in that direction towards it ~ if a man wants to join me with the right attitude ~ fantastic, otherwise I am fine alone,
fine on my own
feeling very free