‎"a candle looses nothing by lighting another candle" Benghazi

before he lost his life in Libya, Benghazi set up cameras and mics and web connections to communicate to the world and tell them the truth of what was happening !




‎"a candle looses nothing by lighting another candle" Benghazi

Messenger RNA

everyone asks me
 why i am not married
why do you have no children?
I have explored this in depth
to realize I have tried some wonderful men on for size,
but no matter how cute they appear on the outside
I have to know their thoughts and workings
on the inside.

as we encounter trouble, which happens everyday ~
how do they handle the situation
how do they handle me?
Can they communicate on the level?

This i now know to be true
to sustain a relationship forever
and have children with someone
means to me that certain skills and awareness need to be in place
or at least moving in that general direction.

and since i have floated through relationships that
leave me with new ideas and new perspectives revealed to me by some amazing men
I must float on in the face of opposing forces
and continue to gather and to teach
just like messenger RNA

I must take the leap into the unknown and float along until i am taken in by a new nucleus
who learns from me and then sends me on my way back into the plasmatic space ~
sailing on the strings of the theory
humming from one frequency to another ~
I am a messanger RNA

teen dream

 taking care of my dear friend's teenage kids for many days, after many years of not having children to take care of, lends me great perspective.
 the innocence of raw emotion and reaction that i have been weening myself of as an adult , comes roaring back to life in a reminder of what passion looks like in it's purist form.
 As a mature adult for a couple of years now, I have trained myself to think before i act, to analyze before i buy,brush my teeth before bed, and to control my impulses ~ knowing the domino effects and rationalizations, calms one down in the heat of a moment and levels the mood ~
I see my parent friends bend back and forth between rational thought and outbursts of frustration
I now, completely understand the exhaustion that goes along with the mood swings and the half truths of a growing human ~
but I must say that
the teens remind me of blind feeling and exuberance ~
and i take on my life with an invigorated sense of play ~

<3

Dear Mr. President

It is a scary thing to have to choose between gas to get to work or lunch!
  This is very reminiscent of the Bush years ~  please Stop choking out California with the highest gas prices and the most absolute NEED.
 I wish people understood WANT vs NEED
they WANT  iraq to be capitalistic ~
we NEED attention on our own soil ~
Don't punish the teachers ~
 the budget needs to be balanced
from the DEFENSE BUDGET!!!!!
They WANT $10,000 toilets~
We NEED smarter energy!!!
get it?
got!
GOOD!


Thanks for listening ~
carry on ~